Ugh... not sure how I feel about this. I can be happy or sad, either way I'm still 1 year older nothing is going to change that. I don't feel old and neither do I really think 30 is that old but I feel that I have to stop and reflect. 30 is a turning point I don't feel like it is another year I can just let pass by. I think mentally I am trying to sort this all out.
Really 30 isn't bad, I have had my working day and was successful and good at my job. I have been married for 9 years and have 2 BEAUTIFUL children and a life I very much enjoy. I had some of the best laughs and days in my 20's with friends and family. I have NO regrets about decisions Levi and I have made... there is really nothing to really depress me. I don't feel any older. I just can't believe I can't claim my 20's anymore! I was just telling my dad how 30 is an adult. He laughed and said "Yeah they let you vote and everything..." so of course I have been legally an adult for awhile and I have been responsible enough to care for a family but 30 doesn't not sound like some young whipper snapper... you're a full blow adult. Even when your 29 you can say "I'm in my 20's"... my 20's were really good to me... some of the most important things and choices I made, were in my 20's. I can't help but think the last couple days "did I make the most of that decade?". I am just kind of sad to close that chapter of my life. Your life is kind of marked by decades and I had fun in my 20's I don't want to see it end. Of course I can and will have fun in my 30's. I think 30 is going to be great!! I hope there are more babies in my future. I finally am getting to live out our goal of me being a stay-at-home mommy and my kids have a lot of growing to do, which is always fun to watch. I have some personal goals for my 30's that I will keep to myself. Hopefully we can move into a real house someday and Levi will hopefully be done with school at some point... :) (he is getting his masters). OK maybe there are a couple things I'd change to make life easier but no need to spend too much time dwelling on those things. They are what they are.
"Hello 30, nice to meet you. I think we are going to have some great times together... I hope :/"
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You will have a great time in your 30's because you can't help it, it is in your nature. You are so full of life and enjoying life to its fullest. Love you, Mom
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