I never knew exhaustion had a smell until tonight. As most of you know December is my busy season and is also the rainy season as well. Tonight when I emerged from the office to walk thru a full restaurant it smelt like "December" and the smell itself made me tired. The smell of steak, warm potatoes and the draft of rain air... it took me right back to my most tired days. One day I am sure I will miss the smell and it might take me back to memories of fun times... now it makes me want to go home and get a foot massage :)... Which now that I think about it today was like a little December, a little chaotic tonight and cold out.
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3 weeks from today Levi will be graduating. This is VERY comforting to me so the end in sight so soon too... Still no job prospects, we haven't really looked though either. The 3 week count down provides no relief for Levi though, it is actually making thing worse. Knowing you have less time to get everything done is not comforting. He finished one class that was tieing up his evenings so Wesley and I enjoying seeing him a bit more. Soon very soon it will be over. He is not very happy with how his semester has gone but he has worked really hard. I have never seen him so busy and stressed in my entire life... so when it is over he will be relieved. Just pray that SOMETHING, ANYTHING comes a long. Also pray about the changes in store. It is sad to admit this but Levi has been going to college for 10 years, so all of our married life. A new lifestyle and schedule will I am sure be an adjustment for us. Life as we have always known it will change. Maybe he will find a job with spring and Christmas break with a long summer break that isn't teaching:)... Do you think that exists?***
Wesley is defiantly 2 lately. I am not sure what to do with this new child residing in our home. He is still sweet with kisses and stuff but laughing after a spanking well that is not the Wesley I am use too... The other day I said "What is your favoritest thing in the whole world?" His response: "NO!"... I think that sums up a 2 year old for you. "No, I will not answer and No is my favorite word"***
I am REALLY sad my mom's group and church is coming up on it's summer break. I really enjoy the group of ladies I was with this year . I was even planning my plan of attack next year. Get their early claim the table I want... blah blah blah. Anyway I have come to feel like I need to see them and learn about being a good wife and mother... and the best ME, I can be. The thing that saddens me most is I am not done with the group, yet I might not return. We don't know what God has in store for us next but it is likely that we won't be here... I am happy to go wherever but not happy to leave that group or our church. It is a tough one for me. They asked if I would be more involved next year and I couldn't really commit... sad.
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